Discovering Your 'Asmita' Complex

The other day, one of my mentors said something powerful: "I have nothing left to prove to anyone and nothing that I have to achieve for myself"

And for the first time, I understood what these words truly mean.

Until one discovers that elusive "x" variable, Life is an endless Sisyphean journey of proving ourselves. We walk around, talk around, and move around with the infinitude of hope that one day we will be able to discover that "one thing" that liberates us from the tyranny of proving ourselves.

It never comes so easily.

Your psyche constantly reminds you that you haven't discovered the burdensome "x" through a powerful mechanism: "Imposter Syndrome". That word is quite a misnomer - An imposter is a person who pretends to be someone else to deceive others.

But we don't pretend to be someone else to deceive others. We pretend to be someone else to tell ourselves a story that we hope to make real someday. Until we discover that elusive "proof" of meaning, we play games of imposter syndrome with hope.

We tell stories about who we want to be more than we are. Slowly, very slowly, as we discover that elusive "x" in the yagna of meaning, we start telling stories of who we are rather than who we want to be.

If proving oneself was the first step, discovering that I have nothing to achieve for myself is the final step. Because once the "X" is found out, the self has been proven and now wants to expand infinitely. She wants you to discover the highest potential. And everything that you can do you will try to achieve. That's the challenge game you start to play with yourself.

There is no end point to this game. This is the infinite game.